I really hated ending August this time. I'm not calm. Even carried away by dreams after waking up in the early morning The night of the week that is expected to be happy, instead becomes a pain because I want to see loved ones continue to be happy.
Somehow I am very angry today. It feels like a karma that must be endured because you believe that there is no such thing as the friendship of 2 people of different types, male and female. Nonsense!
No matter how close it is, even claiming to be a brother
When I heard her talking affectionately and even accustomed to men she considered more than friends, there I started to get jealous.
Not even ashamed, when he made a video call while still using intimate words even though he was just kidding.
Something was wrong with my mind that day. But I don't want to show. Because it will have a bad impact later.
I know jealousy is natural. But, looking back on how I came recently in his life instead of the man who had been friends for a long time, I had already lost.
My jealousy seemed meaningless. Why bother with it when knowing that the future will continue to run independently.
I just wanted to say that I'm not okay today. Moreover, my search, the man did not hesitate to post a photo of my woman alone. They were friends, they were friends and there, I was nothing.
Bad jealous
After 6 months had passed, I thought that Saturday night felt special after finally the distance was no longer crossed.
I remember very well, we had a hard time getting through the weekends during a long distance relationship. Sometimes fighting, sometimes disappearing and sometimes pretending to be happy.
The opportunity came that I thought 'finally I can get a weekly night with someone'. Unfortunately that didn't happen.
As a person who believes in the zodiac, for some reason that jealous suggestion sticks. I don't know what about other people when the tightly wrapped hopes are lost by friends.
Do I not deserve or consider it normal before I finally see more exposure of the two of them when friends on social media.
Maybe I was wrong, and had to give in. It seems that my past cursed and asked for sacrifice when admitting that friendship with women could be eternal.
This is defeat
Jealousy matters like the DNA in the human body. Cannot be eliminated or sent away. Even made to understand.
Her happiness is more important now. Let me get hurt and suffer. Moreover, being an adult like this, all must be tolerated.
This is my defeat today. I hope it doesn't continue into the future and don't curse September.
